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My friend Ali and I share strong disagreement on the topic of religion and spirituality. I do not even know why we argue because it’s like debating over which taste better, mangoes or pineapples. They are not comparable. He is still caught up in the dogma that was handed down to him by his cultural circumstances while I have since left those beliefs behind in an attempt to forge my own path and make my own personal connection to Divine Source. He accuses me, unfairly, of not knowing who, by his definition, God is, and even went as far as to say he is concerned about my Soul. My what? Who gave him that burden to carry? Pray tell.

I see Ali as living in constant fear of a death that may catch him ill-prepared to meet his master. To me, he is like someone dangling over a pit of fire that, on his departure from this physical plane will results in his life's cords being cut and him falling into eternal damnation. He keeps chasing for a connection that is outside of himself. He keeps hoping that the books and the building, the wine and the bread, the fear and the reverence will get him what he seeks.

I am sure that there is an Ali in your life. Refusing to see what is directly under his nose. Looking outside for what is inside. Unhappy. Unfulfilled. Yearning to be saved.

You get angry and then saddened because you know that you have to leave Ali to find his own way.
You cannot clear the path for him.
You cannot argue anymore.

You simply hope that he gets it before it gets him.

I have always been an impatient person. I get antsy when I have to wait in a line be it at the supermarket, the bank, even in traffic, I would occupy myself by fretting over how much longer would I have to wait. All this was before I discovered the art of meditation. Now I see any wait as a time to go within.

Now when I see that I may have a little wait, I join the queue and begin to deepen my breath and relax my body. The sensation is amazing. You can actually feel yourself sinking into yourself like you are being cradled within a floating cushion of warm welcoming air. Your mind expands and your physical body unburdens itself and before you know it, the cashier is beckoning you to approach the counter.

I am sure that many of you can relate to what I am saying, the impatience, the constant rush to get to the next place so that we can rush from there as well; the disquiet in the mind leading to tension in the body and we are all familiar with what happens at this point. We become stressed. We are so busy heading to nowhere fast that we miss the opportunity to discover the most beautiful gift lodged inside ourselves, that of being quiet, getting still, and going within.

The next time you feel the need to put getting there and getting it done into overdrive and you get impatient with everyone else around you who is not busy enough, not moving fast enough, not clearing space because you are coming through, I encourage you to pause, feel for the calm that is always within and change your pace to a slow rush.

Whenever we desire something that seems to be taking too long to come, this is what you have to do: simply imagine yourself where you want to be. If you are like me, with Neptune in your twelfth house, you can easily ace an assignment like this.

You dream it,
You meditate on it,
You see it,
You feel it,
You become it.

Your becoming one with it can happen with and without assistance from the planetary placements in your chart. It is all about the attitude you adopt and the mindset you create.

Do you see yourself as a strong manifester, easily bringing the thoughts and ideas from the astral realm into your physical existence?

Or are you like those who believe that not possessing a single creative bone in their body, they cannot even begin to imagine?

Everything starts with the first step.
So step up and step out into the realm where dreams come true.
Starting with the imagination.

I have this friend. These past few months, our relationship has gotten a bit strained but I am hoping to rekindle it to be how it once was. He has always been good to me. He allowed me space to be myself while watching me grow and develop into the person I am today and I always saw him as being on my side, helping me to work things out, to fix my errors, and to set things right. So you would understand that given that our relationship is not as close as it used to be, I am bothered by it. You know my friend since he might be yours as well. He has been good to many of us. His name is Mr. Time.

Nowadays, Mr. Time has taken on the role of nipping at my heels in a not-so-nice way, telling me that he will not be around forever and I still have so much to get done. He is asking me to up the ante and to reach for more, to move more rapidly towards fulfilling my soul’s purpose given that the vessel that houses my soul is a borrowed one and that too will not be around forever. It is already to beginning to show some wear and tear and though I have been trying to keep it in excellent shape, it was just never meant for immortality.

How has Mr. Time been with you?

Has he been asking you to rest and relax, that you are ahead of schedule and you can now take a break?

Or has been at your heels, nipping away like a rabid dog, sometimes climbing onto your back when there is a need, telling you that you have been too complacent?

Too afraid to move on,
Too shy to speak up,
Too mired in the Ego self that you have forgotten your Soul self,

Mr. Time, for the most part, is good to us. He is patient, kind, and understanding but the minute he goes exits that friend zone and he turns up the ticking of his clock, you know that there are no more time outs.

Have you ever had a friend, a family member, a lover, someone who means a lot to you and you see them doing the wrong thing, going along the wrong path, hell-bent to nowhere and you offer advice that you know would be helpful but they will not listen to you, worse yet take it? When this happens, it is painful. It feels like you have the remedy and the sick patient refuses the cure and continue to suffer.

I have a friend. He suffers from bouts of depression, sometimes lasting for months and when they occur, things can get really dark. When I do not see or hear from him for a while, I would teasingly ask him if he ‘went underground’. He usually smiles wryly and answers in the affirmative. My friend is closing in on midlife and has never been married, has no children, and has never been in a relationship longer than five years. He sees himself and strong and independent, not needing anyone in his life. He has some narcissistic tendencies that, on occasion, have gotten him in trouble with his relationships.

You see, my friend has his South Node/ Ketu in his first house and he continues to live in the past. The first house is about self, believing in oneself, thinking that there is no great need for anyone else. This means then, that his North Node/Rahu in his seventh house, the House of Partnership. With this house, there is a shift away from oneself towards another. The aim here is to relate and corporate, to form strong bonds and unite. A person with his North Node in the seventh house achieves his soul purpose when he assumes the role of one for the many and not one for the self and so is able to live the life he chose when he entered this earthly realm. My friend knows this because I have told him so on many occasions. He brushed the information away and has continued to live a life much less than what he came here to experience.

My heart aches for him.

I recently invited him to share a cup of coffee with me.

I will try one more time.

I am still not comfortable speaking about some of the things that appear to me during my meditative sessions, especially when these things are hard to rationalize with the logical mind. Meditation increases a person’s intuitive and psychic abilities. Whether one wishes to build on these gifts that we all have mind you, depends on the person.

Increased intuition comes about after we have done the preparatory work, meaning having gone through the process of the dark night of the soul; the cleaning out and clearing up of the cobwebs of our past that entangle the subconscious mind and prevent for a clear and strong connection.

I am no psychic. I cannot predict anything. I get messages now and again mostly from persons on their way out of this physical plane or persons who have crossed over who for some reason feel like I am a good candidate to carry a message. Most of the messages I do not bother to relate; I feel it is not in my place. Nobody asked me anything and using my local dialect, I would be “quite fass wid meself” telling people what they had no interest in hearing.

My latest visitor has been a little girl, around 5 or 6 years, judged from the fact that she has no front teeth. Her hair is long and neatly coming into two long ponytails and she is wearing a nice orange dress that flows into yellow at the hemline. She has huge wistful eyes and she looks at me and smiles but appears someone sad as if she is missing someone. From her initial visit, I figured she was connected to someone of the work crew that is currently repairing the back fence between my yard and my neighbour’s. I do not know the people from adam and we do not even speak the same language. So why did this little girl choose me to deliver a message that she is missing her loved one? For them to look at me like I had suddenly grown horns? They may even pack up and leave without finishing the job!

It is tough when things like these happen and if she is a persistent one, I would not be able to get her out of my psyche. I have had to deliver messages to some of my relatives and if I were them, I would have called the doctor lady who gives injections to crazy folks.

The thing is, many of us do not know what our metaphysical gifts are and when we tap into them through meditation, they are then revealed. We just have to know beforehand the possibilities and prepare for the inevitable.

Not even session that we sit that something mystical will be revealed. Many times it is a quiet, beautiful, experience that leaves us feeling relaxed and calm, in touch with our Higher Selves and Universal Consciousness. Other times it can get quite turbulent.

Just remember support is always available from our spirit guides, our ancestors, and the Divine. When the pressure gets too great, tap into them when we want to tap out.

Open your mind and believe in what you think of as impossible,
Open your eyes and see the unfolding,
Open your heart and feel the goodness of it coming,
Open your mouth and speak it into being.

Sometimes we are afraid to speak our desires into being. We know what we want, we also know what we do not want but we are still not brave enough to ask for it but will only come when you get the courage to say it and believe it.

If you feel that what you want is too big, too great, too much for your undeserving self then speak something less grand into being and experience the power of universal forces when they gather around you to grant your desires.

Since I was small, I have always admired a particular house that I felt drawn to for reasons I could not explain. Whenever I was in the vicinity, I would always look at it through the fence and I guess, unknowing to me, I sent out my desires to the Universe but I never once dared speaking it into being. I was a poor girl from a poor community and many persons considered that my greatest prospect was going to be getting pregnant by sixteen and then living a life of struggle. Who was I to ask for such grandeur of the Universe? I am not a little girl anymore, the property is now for sale and I am speaking it into being.

Is there anything in your life that you have desired strongly but have been afraid to speak into being?
How has it been working out for you?
How much longer are you going to be looking through the fence with the cat dangling off your tongue?

Believe in the power of the Universe.
Believe that you can be or have anything you desire.

Believe and Speak.
Believe and Expect.
Believe and Receive.

Have you ever been deep in meditation when a thought enters your subconscious mind from seemingly nowhere and it was so brilliant that you jumped up to write it down? One of the things that meditation and quieting the mind does is that it presents us with thoughts that, if acted upon can change lives.

I have a friend who has been unemployed for a while because of the coronavirus pandemic. He worked in one of the most hard-hit sectors, tourism and since then has been aimlessly trying to find a new purpose. He knew he did not want to go back into the hotel business but was unsure as to what he could do instead. I told him that needed to find his calling through developing whatever talents he was blessed with. My friend is an eight house Pisces sun, his ascendant is in Cancer and he has an exalted Moon. Based on those alone, it is obvious that he is all about emotions and being empathetic and highly intuitive, I have scolded him on many occasion for ‘wasting’ his gifts.

So one evening during my meditation a thought came to me. It was three simple words and I knew right away they were for him: ‘A Helping Hand’ and the picture was that of a business card. It made complete sense since he flourishes whenever allowed to help people so why not create a business, loving what he does?

Often times the Universe works in this way. We get flashes of thoughts that once acted upon can help us to find our soul purpose. It may not come like a lightning bolt from the heavens, but it might just be the seed of an idea. A seed, planted and watered can grow into a mighty tree.

So take the time to sit and quiet your mind; go within and listen for the seeds of thoughts that your Higher Self sends your way. It may be for you, it may be for someone close to you, but when asked, the Universe always answers, always.

Many of us can feel when the Universe is about to bless us with something we have been desiring for a long time. In our energy, we feel it coming, anticipation gets heightened and excitement rises. But the ultimate is that when we begin to feel the emotion of the thing even before the thing comes, that’s when we really know it’s for real.

I know there are people who will wonder how can you feel the emotion from the thing before it manifests in your 3-D? I used to wonder the same thing myself until I began to realize that is how it works. I compare in to being happy and thankful when there is little and being happy and thankful when there is a lot. When the happy and the thankful remain steady, that’s when the blessings begin raining down.

How happy and thankful have you been lately?
Happy to be alive and loved?
Thankful for your job and the food on your table?
Happy to be part of the right here, right now?
Thankful for the experience of life, the good, the bad, and the really bad?

If you have not been happy and thankful, well you still have time to get on board this caravan to abundance which only drives up and stops for you when you are happy and thankful. You can start by looking for the little things.

A smile from a stranger,
Some garden veggies from your neighbour;
The feel of sand through your toes,
The warm sun on your noes;

The eyes to enjoy nature,
The blessings from the Creator;
That hot cup of tea,
And just being allowed to be.

Where I come from, most things esoteric and metaphysical, are not viewed very positively. Our colonial past ingrained in us the belief that the magic, (or what I would like to describe as the enhanced understanding of the workings of the Universe) possessed by our ancestors wicked and evil, to the point where the practice of what we refer to as Obeah, continues to be illegal on our law books to this day. I am not saying that practitioners of dark magic, in whatever form they choose, have not done some evil shit, causing pain, suffering and in some cases death to other people but we have limited our view of the metaphysical to simply the dark side and have refused to acknowledge and accept the duality of it all.

I am fascinated by all things esoteric and metaphysical. I am interested in knowing the origin of the universe and am not limiting myself to the test tubes and Bunsen burners that are offered as knowledge in our schools.

A Mind space that connects to the universe, so vast and unexplored for the most parts, must have some secrets that it is willing to spill:

On the idea of astral traveling and vivid dreaming,
On the practice of meditation that connects oneself in oneness to Universal Consciousness,
On the exploration and mining of our dreams and visions,
On the use of herbal plants and medicines for healing,
On the sharing of creativity through art, music, words, and dance,
On the belief that we are pure energy and that energy can make dis-energy whole again,
On the knowledge already given the sages, shamans, prophets, and astrologists who teach and warn;

It’s all there to explore with the Inner and Upper Minds as long as we do not narrow our view to a 2- inch diameter porthole and lose out on seeing and experiencing the great expanse of it all.