No Inspiration is Inspiration

Each morning I meditate and wait on some inspiration for my daily blog. Some days I am able to write two or three pieces and other days, nothing. Either that I got caught up from early in the daily grind or I was feeling no inspiration. Today was a day when I was not feeling anything. I woke early enough, I was able to meditate before the quietness of the morning was taken away by the traffic and the movement of people going about their business, before I heard the horn of the bread bus or the bleating of the goats across the road, before my five dogs began their rambunctious early morning play, trying to wake me for their kibbles, but there was no inspiration. I usually get a word, a phrase, or an idea on which I am able to put together something coherent enough to share. Nothing came.

I sat with the laptop hoping that words will come to me. I even began writing a piece on ‘knowing our shadow side’ but it will not flow. My shadow side was coming out I guess because I started to feel my self-confidence slipping. I am not a very confident person to begin with. It took a lot from me to even begin to share my art and my thoughts with an audience that I do not even know. I am fearful of harsh, nonconstructive criticism and am very much doubtful of my capacities to paint or write something that will resonate and be of benefit to some other living soul.

As I continued to feel nothing, I put the computer away and went about my morning chores, hoping that inspiration will come with time. Later, I decided to write on “Feeling nothing, when creative inspiration evades.”
I smiled at the topic and felt a stirring of something inside.

Less than ten minutes later, I had the making of a piece. But you know, we all go through periods when we feel nothing.
No creativity.
No zest for life;
Periods of listlessness and vague unhappiness;
Periods of depression, feeling unloved, and unworthy.

And it is okay as long as we experience these feelings knowing that this too shall pass.

Tomorrow becomes another day to live and love, to fight, win, and lose and to be grateful and happy for the life we have.