Everything is going to be OK

Have you ever had one of those moments when you wanted something so badly that you could taste it? But it still remained out of reach? It’s just there but not quite there yet?

I had that experience earlier today. I needed some assistance in getting a structure erected to serve as Lizzie’s Nest Soup Kitchen. I knew that achieving this was going to put me directly on the path to fulfilling my soul’s purpose, so I was rearing to move ahead.

With a retrograde Saturn in my birth chart, this lifetime is a do-over and I have no choice but to get it right this time and with my North Node is in my second house, I am on my own with this one; I was not to expect assistance from anyone. Part of my work and fulfilling my karma was being self-sufficient and independent.

From quite young I understood that my purpose in life was to revolve around food, healing, and service. The idea was to use food to heal the physical, which in one way or the other would redound upwards to the emotional and spiritual. But there was always one block after the next and everything achieved came with tremendous effort and I was really tired of the efforting. Realizing that the sand was moving rapidly through the hourglass and with me having so much to do in order to get somewhere from here, I sat down and burst into tears. Frustration does that to me every time!

Through the tears, I felt the presence of my ancestors and spirit guides comforting me and telling me that it will be okay and that things will work out. I was so caught up in my feelings of lack and despair, I did not even want to hear them.

Why could it not have been easier?
What was the reason for all the suffering and frustration?
Why, why why.

I knew I had to calm down to hear the answers but the emotions ran deep.

As you read this post, I feel your nod of agreement. You feel me. You know what it is to desire, not for yourself but for others and you still are not successful in getting that want satisfied. You cry to the Universe, “but it’s not even for me, “

And the Universe responds with an ‘everything is going to be ok’.

So softly.
So assuredly.
That you almost miss it.